Lately am being so paranoid... of losing my identity..
I am paranoid that am losing time... Theres so much to do and so little time!!24hours is just not enough a day!!
When I look at books I wanna read them all... When I read those books, I wanna practice my french... When am learning french, I wanna strum my guitar, when I strum my guitar, I wanna blog... when I blog ,I wanna watch latest movies... when I watch TV, I wanna go out and see the world,... The "wanna-list" is just never ending... Its left me biting my nails, am a nervous wreck..
Although I've been busy it seems like am doin nothin!!!Am paranoid that am gonna lose out on the best of things... I wanna do it all, know it all,see it all.....Sometimes the hunger can be so overbearing.Am distressed that my hard work will go unappreciated and overlooked..
I just dont wanna be a stereotype indian wife only doing the cooking and cleaning.... I wanna explore the world, learn more, see more... I wake up several times a night just to remember a novel to read or a song to learn, or just to remember that I haven't plucked my eye-brows in 2 months..!..
I feel so outdated , i dont know which is the latest movie in theatres now!!I cant even remember the last movie I watched....
Am I cracking up finally??























